“Wishing” (Audio) by Cortney Joseph

A few years ago, in an attempt to get over the great dislike I have for my own voice (I still hate my voice because it's too manly for my liking), and before making numerous attempts to get over my camera shyness by jumping on camera; I began doing voice recordings of my poetry. It…

3:30 am

It's been months of sleepless days and nights, and the tears still fall in the darkness and light. I wander and wonder what life is now, to go on without you, still don't know how. Cortney Joseph

“Darkness” by Cortney Joseph

lying in the dark, at hours past midnight i feel lost, alone. afraid.   try as I might, i can't stop myself from falling prey, trapped with the demons. they're in my head.   overwhelming worries, they overpower my faith, and I stumble as tears blind me, as strength evades, chaos ensues.

“A Bottle A Day” by Cortney Joseph

A bottle a day keeps the heartache away, Or so I thought I heard someone say.   Each sip reopens freshly healed wounds, drowning out good memories, clouding my mind with the pain of what will never be. Each sip leaves me clamoring for the return of a life now gone, stammering over sorrow filled…

“Dreams Of You” by Cortney Joseph

We were beneath the tree beside our house. Me in my little pink corvette, you in your yellow prowler.   We were talking big smack, passing licks and clowning around. Racing each other up and down the street until the sun went down.   Then you stood, and you smiled. Your hands rose, you began…

“Doin’ Wrong” by Cortney Joseph

In secrecy we meet, dangerously aware of the troubles we greet. Carelessly giving in to temptation week after week.   To others we belong, but the feelings shared between us are far too strong. We can't let go, no matter that we both know this life we lead is wrong.

“It’s Been” by Cortney Joseph

I find it hard to put into words the changes I've felt come over me.   It's been scary, but amazing. It's been stressful, but empowering.   It's been bubbling within my mind and soul, pushing a stronger and wiser woman to the top.   It's been calming. It's been peaceful.   It's been God.